London Baby!

So yesterday I went to the big city with my friend Fran. Fran studies Textiles fine art at university and when she realised that I am now studying too she asked if I wanted to go along and see a few exhibitions with her. Of course I jumped at the opportunity!

I think the last time I went to London must have been at least 6 years ago- and lets be honest it wasn’t particularly to soak in the cultural side of London! (Retail therapy!)

Going to London always makes me feel a bit like the country mouse from “Town mouse and country mouse” a book my mum used to read to me when I was younger! The country mouse was basically overwhelmed and clueless on busy “town” life! I think this is sadly how I have become from living in the countryside far too long! London is amazing!- There is so much to see, so many cultures, so much inspiration and influence.. so much atmosphere! everywhere you look there are new things to take in! The way that no person dresses the same and the women are not afraid to be who they are and be unique! That is one thing that is lost in the countryside!- everyone seems to be like sheep around here! lack of individuality! I came home completely walked out, tired, buzzing and inspired!

Our day started off first at White cube in Bermondsey. Fran wanted to see an exhibition by Tracey Emin. Fran told me that I would possibly walk around the whole exhibition and wonder what on earth was happening as I was warned her art is pretty explicit, scribbly and mostly in Frans words “of her legs wide open” whilst I did spend most of the time repeating to her “well… it’s definitely different!” there was aspects I did like.. the fact that she showed no fear in her work. Her work was drawn from pain but she used it to communicate in a way which showed no fear. It was explicit, raw and she definitely had her own personal style which was consistent throughout the whole exhibition!

The second stop was again another exhibition that Fran wanted to go to. The glassblowing museum in Bermondsey.. although this exhibition did not really relate or help me much – I did like looking at the skill and all the pretty colours used. There was a collection of glass bottles too which were inspiring; a designer had moulded glass bottles around plastic bottles and filled them with all the rubbish found in our seas to highlight pollution, climate change and littering our seas with rubbish!

Third stop was an exhibition I wanted to go to! The Fashion and Textiles museum in Bermondsey. Although I am obviously studying Graphic Design I have always had a LOVE for sixties fashion! The colours, the styles, the way at the time the youth rebelled against the old and welcomed new change in! the music, the girl models at the time who made the scene relevant and hip and the general atmosphere! The exhibition was great! – It centered around the fashion of Mary Quant and the interior styles of Terence Conran. I found a lot of Graphic Design influence here from posters used at the time, packaging for Mary Quants makeup range, brochures and catalogues used, sketches used in layouts for fashion magazines… there was a lot to photograph that I could use as inspiration for future projects or assignments!

Alongside this museum was a small exhibition called “will you be my valentine” by Natalie Gibson. A textiles and print designer who started her work in the 1960s. I am unsure as to why I was drawn to her work so much but I really was! I loved the colours, the style of her illustrations, the type she used and how it seemed so quirky and kitsch! One drawing of hers really inspired me to look at and gave me some ideas for my assignment one!

Bermondsey was a lovely little place, charming! very quaint and filled with wonderful little places. We found a few Banksy graffiti’s here too which was amazing as I have never come across one before but always been a great fan of his work. After trying to figure out if the “It doesn’t seem so tall” and “there can’t be another shard looking building like that” building in front of us was actually the Shard.. (yes! we really are country bumpkins!) we decided to head on to the V&A to check out the Mary Quant exhibition there. Sadly for me (who really wanted to go!) the exhibition was sold out on it’s first day of viewing.

We decided to end the day at Camden. I have obviously been to London many times in the past but never been to Camden Town. I am so pleased we went! The only way I could describe it is like going to several places all at the same time!- although we was in England and it was still in London, to me it very much felt like we was abroad in a foreign country! One minute it felt like I was in Spain (I bought a fake Louis Vuitton handbag which tbh I only usually do there!) next it felt like I was in Turkey, There was African stalls with African inspired jewellery and when you walked down the street to the shops which had the animated fronts it felt like I was walking in Vegas!

So much culture, different styles, the hustle and bustle, the atmosphere, so many different unique types of people. I was overwhelmed by how much there was to take in. Soaking in and photographing all the inspiration around me.

You can’t grow in a comfort zone…

When I received my place of enrolment last Wednesday; as amazing as it felt I almost felt suffocated by anxiety. I had to give myself a pep talk and remind myself that I can do this! I was very much in a comfort zone – this is all about pushing myself! I have since read through absolutely everything, watched tutorials, sketched out some ideas… I feel like a LOT has changed from the last time I studied.. knowing how many sketchbooks to have, what to put in each one!.. I do however have my own sketchbook similar to what is expected from my learning log so for that I was thankful. Time is also a massive factor to me, it’s been a week and I already feel like I should have achieved so much more than what I have! Maybe though I am just too hard on myself!

The first thing I wanted to concentrate on is my learning log sketchbook and getting this blog up and running! As I said, I have one similar that I use for myself on a daily basis. It is just a plain, boring book but I love the fact I can remember what I was doing and thinking in my life on every page of it. A visual diary. I have done the same for this learning log; purchased a standard book which I have started to sketch and write my ideas in. As well as visually I like to brainstorm.. I work well with lists and bullet points, random words written on a page. This helps me to remember crucial things or document random ideas that spring to mind! I watched a documentary on Netflix with Paula Scher (Graphic Designer) and she said she gets all her ideas travelling in the taxi.. I am similar – in the car, at work, whenever I find moments to zone out.

I think what I am trying to say from this post is that it is ok to feel scared… scared comes from a place of growth. Everything you want is on the other side of fear.

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Re-educating Amy

It’s never too late to start all over again… I have new ideas this time.

Amy Holmes – March 2019

All this is a little bit alien to me…

As I sit Struggling to navigate my way around WordPress and realising that a lot has changed in the last 11 years since I had my last degree experience! Yep! – This post entitled Educating Amy means entirely that! At 32 years old! well… 31 years young and 8 months to be precise (lets be honest though after that “half year birthday prosecco” voucher from Prezzos hits your mailbox in January.. you’re practically 32!) I have decided to re-educate myself and start my degree journey again.. this time with a new attitude and new ideas!

My blog is all about honesty.. no matter how explicit or awkward. I am not ashamed to say I made a royal mess of my twenties. Why you ask? – I have drawn ever since I could pick up a pencil. My primary school teachers used to tell me I would be an Illustrator for children’s books. I went on to study Graphic Design at GCSE level and excelled in it. I carried this on into my BTEC in Graphics Design at college and again, showed much promise for the future. After a gap year I returned to study at degree level. This is where my design journey ended (for the time being!)

My early twenties sparked a deep depression; I never felt like I fitted in (I still don’t actually!) I never felt “enough” I simply put.. felt lost. I became disheartened. I left uni and several jobs later and one toxic relationship that lasted for 10 years and almost cost me everything… here I am! Stronger, resilient and with more motivation and drive than I have ever had my entire life. It is not easy… I have so many ideas and thoughts that cross my mind, so much I want to achieve. So much I want to create and make!

Time sometimes is a curse – I work full time in a secondary school; my job role? Working within Graphics and Textiles and I basically cover most things! – technician! Teaching Assistant! reprographics! I also have a double life.. I work in retail in the evenings. I have a lot on my plate to juggle! The most common question asked me.. “How do you do it?” my answer – “because I HAVE to.” Up until this point in my life I have hidden behind, supressed and denied my creative ability; reserving it only for people close to me to see. People I meet tell me “I’m wasting my talent” although I have always deemed myself “out of touch” and the “it’s too late for me now” attitude…. I became suffocated by a comfort zone.

The last decade has given me a lot of life lessons – I believe everything happens for a reason, everything has a thought, idea or a meaning behind it otherwise what is the point? I would like to think I think and do the things I do for a reason… The reason I love being creative is for a reason…. my talent happened for a reason… and here and now happened the way it did to get me to this crucial reasoning. Deep isn’t it! – I know! Deep provokes thoughts, ideas and emotions! I have a feeling you will be seeing more of that! 😀

Thank you for viewing my blog and over the next few weeks I hope to upload ramblings, ideas, designs and general insights into my world and this whole new weird, alien but cool chapter of my life whilst obviously.. remaining very much “candidly Amy” .

A xo